21 notes for Meditators: Answers for Questions you never asked!
Note 17: Burden of Guilt
As we come close to the end of the notes, I feel the need to address some of the very sensitive and important topics. Today let’s talk about the weight of the guilt on Meditators shoulders.
First and foremost, let me clarify something before I talk about guilt. I am not talking about the guilt which you normally associate with religious upbringings. That guiltiness is different because it is imposed by scriptures, priests, and parents. Today I am talking about the guiltiness of a Meditator. Meditator guiltiness is about the awareness of the deep potential he carries within but is burdened by unconsciousness and judgment. It is about the barriers to growth created by Meditator himself.
One of the important realizations for the Meditator during the inner journey is the power of ego or unconsciousness. Meditators feel guilty about the fact that they have no control over their thoughts for a long time and they made some important decisions in their life with unconsciousness. When meditators contemplate their past they begin to realize that some of the important decisions they took were not centered on love and compassion but on hatred and anger. They also begin to understand that majority of the decision they take are still based on their strong beliefs and not on the awareness of the moment. This drives them guilty. This also leaves them deeply divided inside. The struggle at this stage is more to do with the inability to accept yourself with all the flaws you perceive. You struggle to overcome your own judgment about yourself.
The challenge here is a deep acceptance. You are divided because you cannot accept yourself completely. The only whole man is holy! When I say whole, I mean the one who has accepted himself totally and unconditionally without any judgment. You have to drop the burden of the past however painful it is. Second is you have to stop analyzing the past. In the western world, Karma is very loosely used. In the East where the word is originated, it means “you are living the present out of the past”. Karma is nothing but the burden you carry to the present moment. That makes you heavy and guilty and all your present-day decisions are affected by such a burden and you blame the outcome on Karma.
What can you do?
As I say first law is always; meditate, more meditation, and meditation. Just continue to meditate. Deep acceptance and let go. Accept yourself totally and unconditionally. That’s how you are needed at this moment. Total acceptance of the past brings tremendous transformation within you. Guilt is like you are pushing against a river of life and total acceptance is like flowing with the river. Remember the lesson here at this stage is deep acceptance and judgment. The moment you are capable of dropping all kinds of judgment about yourself, you also drop judging others and vice versa is true also. Then the river flows on its own accord. It reaches the ocean with love and celebration.
Note to help:
The meditation at this stage I recommend is forgiveness. Consciously and with awareness forgive every painful relationship and problem around them. Especially in closed relationships, you will be amazed to discover that once you start accepting all relationships without any judgment and celebrate them, You will also be accepted and celebrated. Einstein’s third law of equal force and equal reaction holds up pretty well here.
Guilt is a byproduct of judgment and doubts, whereas trust is a product of deep acceptance. Meditation is nothing but the deep acceptance of the present moment.
Sureshg is the founder of Breathwork India. If you have any doubts, feel free to write in comments or if you have personal or professional questions then do use our contact details page to write to him.